今晚的星星只有二十一颗，我是说，当我数到第二十一颗，我就闭上眼睛，就当是我给自己吹灭的蜡烛，来干了这碗二十一年的人间烟火。

现在已经31号了，所以我的生日其实是在昨天，我觉得人总有一些在一夜之间长大的时刻。没有过多的喜悦，没有寂寞的孤独，无悲无喜，这就是长大吧，一个人在黑暗里静静的等待，等待。于天上看见深渊，于无所希望中得救，一遍又一遍，心心又念念。可现实告诉我们，念念不忘，没有回响。于是我偷偷对自己说，人生当苦无妨，良人当归即好，你要静候 再静候，就算失守 始终要守。

我曾在山巅之上领略灿烂星空的众星捧月，也在山脚之下尝遍绝望深渊的一败涂地。在兵荒马乱中，收拾行囊继续上路，随即成长为如今的模样。
在路途中，在每一次的十字路口前，我仿佛都能听见有人对我说，就像恶魔的低语般
She said, where'd you wanna go?
她说，你想去何方？
How much you wanna risk?
你能承担多大的风险。
我也这样问自己，值得吗?
值不值得，我不知道，但有一说一确实不后悔我已经相信有些事不必再说，就像有些人不必再等。而我的人生是正入万山圈子里，一山放过一山拦，也再也没有什么巅峰低谷，唯有向前，从此只有眼前路，再无身后生。

你且听着荒唐 春秋走来一步步 你且迷这风浪 永远二十赶朝暮 将昨日事 归欢喜处。自此千山我独行，不必相送。

生日快乐！

"I feel a little rush
I think I've got a little crush on you
I hope it's not too much
But babe when I'm with you, I hear it
My heart singing
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la-la
la la la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la-la
la la la"

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I may have to leave you now,
For I have been torn.
You said I never thought from your ground,
Oh dear,
These words are the stabs that might never heal.
You knew I would give up so much to be by your side,
Do you eagerly need a company right now?
Do you eagerly need a company right now?
You have been searching for the one for years,
Here I have came for your prays,
All you need just a little more patience,
Till I can give you everything that soon coming days.
We know we are right for each other,
We share our pains and happiness,
Along with those dreams and wonders for the far foreign lands...
Perhaps I don’t understand you enough,
Perhaps it’s the illusional fantasy that only chasing by myself alone.
But dear,
Do you dare to believe once more in your life time as it's far from its very end?
Please don't let me go.