今偶然翻出了当年申PHD时的personal essay，主题是i have a dream，读来竟然把自己懵到了，有点不敢相信竟然是自己所写。以现如今的心境已断然无法写出这样的essay了。应该说，当年的自己如此执着、有点勇敢，甚至——非常理想主义……I know everything should not be easy, even more difficult for a girl, like me; I also can imagine the difficulties and helplessness I will encounter during the future study, I still stick to it for it is the wish from the deep of my heart..有时候真的怀疑，这些年来自己究竟是成长了，还是终究被成熟了。毫无疑问的是，曾经内心的坚守和固有的阵地已经逐渐沦陷……

Feel blessed with friends around me. I was upset and suspended my Weibo update for a long while. Retrospect really brings me good memories with you all. I’ll keep my past happy moments here so no one can ever annoy me and define me as “LOSER”. I’m still striving for PhD studies and sure they’ll take a good look at me! Fingers crossed for myself Xx https://t.cn/z8ysHDc

Prof. Geoff Hall give us some ideas about academic life as a PhD student which is really works for me. I was missed my graduation ceremony today since I’m here for the summer experience week at UNNC which is actually have a lot of fun as well. Congratulations! https://t.cn/RyhjiXk