#lead潮流# 法国导演、编剧劳伦·冈泰于4月25日去世，享年62岁，他执导的《墙壁之间》获得2008年戛纳电影节金棕榈大奖。

戛纳官方发文悼念：“我们深感悲痛，他的作品连贯且富有人文主义色彩，是敏感、肤浅和社会意识电影的标志。这位凭借《墙壁之间》荣获 2008 年金棕榈奖的艺术家和坚定的人道主义者，在社会暴力面前寻求光明，在现实严酷的情况下找到希望。电影节以悲伤的心情向这位谨慎但至关重要的电影制作人致敬，他有着根深蒂固的承诺，并坚信电影可以改变轨迹。”

【漫话天下 | 以安全之名 行强盗之实Under the guise of security】近日，美国总统拜登签署950亿一揽子对外援助法案，其中还夹带了涉及TikTok的霸王条款，强制字节跳动剥离旗下应用TikTok美国业务，否则Tiktok将面临在美国的全面封禁。美国打着维护国家和世界安全的幌子，捆绑“销售”对TikTok制裁，足以体现其“打不过就抢”的强盗逻辑。 On April 24, U.S. President Joe Biden signed a $95 billion foreign aid package to assist allies like Israel and Ukraine. Notably, the package also includes a provision that could lead to TikTok being divested or banned. By targeting TikTok, whose parent company is Chinese, the U.S., under the guise of safeguarding security, has shown itself to be a bully that disregards fairness and rules.

I don’t know how to explain what happened to me these days. I had a big quarrel with Lucas and we fighted and I scratched him on the chin. We both said many heartbreaking words to each other, and both of us were very disappointed. I moved out of his apartment. To be honest, I had a been upset for quite a long time because of my passive situation. Every time I cannot take the lead of myself, I’ll be down. I was even sadder when he was helping me package up hastily. It was like, he has been looking forward to my left for long time. Also, I was feeling myself abandoned as an object. This feeling has been haunting my whole life repeatedly, over and over again. Corinne said probably it was because I experienced some mental trauma in my childhood. I don’t know, but I do know this is not the first time and won’t be the last time of feeling it.
I’ve been reflecting on myself frequently these days, mostly about the relationship between me and Lucas, and also about Corinne and Max. I blamed myself for believe in Lucas’s over commitment. I regrettd for being so close to Max. I looked down upon myself for overreliance on others. I hated myself for wanting so much I resented my unrealistic ambition.
I was thankful for Lucas’s gentleness, Corinne's care, and my parents' support. Now, I need to reconsider my life path. How can I balance all these things? How can I continue speaking English? How can I find a less stressful and quieter social environment? How can I be an excellent teacher? How can I get a boyfriend who is tall and strong and always the hero for me? At the meantime, how can I take my parents’ feelings into consideration?
No matter how, the truth is, being aware of who we are, where we are from, and where we should go is always a lifelong task.
I still desire a low-key and safe relationship without overcommitment without overreliance, and without the need to show it off to others. I’ll continue finding it.