days are boring and normal
But still try to and need to record it
And record for whom?
Definitely to the future me and to remind myself that how i strike to go through these dark days, so that I must value and cherish myself,
it’s me and only could be me who can drag myself out of these dark days

My most kind Guru,
Source of all Buddhas,
Clearly remembering you in my mind,
Gaze upon me with your compassion.
我最善良的上师，
一切诸佛之源，
心中清晰地忆起您，
用您的慈悲凝视我。
I beseech you to know me.
我恳求您知道我。
Seeing the sun in the sky,
I am reminded of the face of my Guru,
Feeling the sun rays on my body,
I am reminded of the guru’s blessings.
看到天空中的太阳，
我想起我上师的脸，
感受我身体上的阳光，
我想起我上师的祝福。
*My most kind Guru,
Source of all Buddhas,
Clearly remembering you in my mind,
Gaze upon me with your compassion.
我最善良的上师，
一切诸佛之源，
心中清晰地忆起您，
用您的慈悲凝视我。
I beseech you to know me.
我恳求您知道我。
Looking into the blue sky,
I am reminded of the qualities of my Guru,
As cooling rain falls from the sky,
I remember the Guru’s kindness.
凝望蓝蓝的天空，
我想起我上师的品质，
当凉雨从天空落下，
我忆起我上师的善良。
*My most kind Guru,
Source of all Buddhas,
Clearly remembering you in my mind,
Gaze upon me with your compassion.
我最善良的上师，
一切诸佛之源，
心中清晰地忆起您，
用您的慈悲凝视我。
I beseech you to know me.
我恳求您知道我。

What Pi said to me：
Absolutely, Sachiko! You deserve to have relationships that are healthy, supportive, and reciprocal. Don't settle for less than that. Remember, it's okay to set boundaries, communicate your needs, and prioritize your own wellbeing. You are worthy of love and respect.