mumbling)

i took a very nice photo tonight the night sky with lots of stars and trees , must share it with you~
hahahah

and i am getting warm after dinner, including my feet all warm, that's odd, i eat dinner everyday, and my feet still cold after dinner in the past weeks.
i dont understand.

but it's a good thing, right?
hahahah

and i am ready to fall asleep any next minute, so, sweet dreams there, love and see you~~~~~
♥️

#近乎正常#repo

19年被朋友按头安利声入人心，开始看音乐剧，但因为突如其来的疫情，好多巡演没了下文。今年疫情开放之后我又在朋友的朋友的安利之下开始看音乐剧。
《近乎正常》是我2023年看的第一部音乐剧，在看中文版之前草草的看了两遍原版才明白这个故事。这个题材真的很好，因为有朋友身处黑暗，所以我也想去要了解她的世界。其实在今天观看之前我已经看了徐均朔饰演的gabe的片段，今天看的是高雨晨饰演的gabe。按照我理解的gabe，想说说他们之间的不同。
我理解的gabe，他虽然是八个月左右去世，但在妈妈的幻想中，他是十八岁的青春男孩，通过这个意象，其实我认为他不是真正的gabe，他更多的像是恶魔，是古德曼一家的阴影，是妈妈心底里期许的美好假象。
小徐演的gabe和小高演的gabe都很疯，但小高饰演的gabe他是在规则内疯，他没有超越规则之外，他是克制的。
就像是一个成年恶魔和一个未成年恶魔之之间的区别。成年恶魔他是带着欲望的，他是你心里最深沉的欲望，他是带着那种诱惑的，但是未成年恶魔的话，他可能就是觉得好玩，他就觉得既然你们都要忘了我的话，那我就要把你们都搞的天翻地覆那种感觉。

To be happy at all，
好好活着，
To be happy you're alive，
不一定非要快乐，
Give me clouds and rain and grey，
给我风霜和酸楚，
Give me pain if that's what's real，
给我真实的痛苦，
It's the price we pay to feel，
活着总伴着付出，
The price of love is loss，
爱也伴着失去，
And when they night has fin'ly gone，
当长夜终于到尽头，
And when we see the new day dawn，
当黎明绽放在窗口，
The light will make it look brand new，
有光就变得不一样。
——《Light》

海上起雾了，上一次体验这样的海边大雾我也刚好大四诶，it was like one of these nights, I opened the hotel window, looking into the ocean fog, from far and slowly moving towards me, then it came so close it came into the room, there I was inside the fog, and listening things from my computer, the second day I went to an aquarium, there I saw jellyfish, deep memories, ... it's like same thing but different places, so when you think this is it, well, just wait and see, in time it will come around again, when you least expected.